“To know love we have to invest time and commitment…’dreaming that love will save us, solve all our problems or provide a steady state of bliss or security only keep us stuck in wishful fantasy, undermining the real power of the love — which is to transform us.'” – bell hooks
The pebbles on the window pane were percussive taps of freedom.
I was told:
Only with a boy would I be safe in the world.
I could not go—unless, unless, unless
There was a boy to protect me.
Sounds like love but it’s trade.
Never trusted to be on my own.
Alone.
I broke free and left anyway.
Thinking.
I would die.
Because I was taught
Never
Never go without a bodyguard.
Seemed barbaric to me then.
But now…
Looking back
I understand her fear
It’s all she had
Fear
Not because she chose it consciously
Because she barely got out alive herself
Fear
Shackles clenched in opposition
Opposition to love.
Love
To love is to trust from the gut
To stay in touch with the head
To navigate these things
And sometimes
Trust
Trust in the face of past betrayal
Trial loves
And failed friendships
Liars posing as lovers
Words attempting to replace the action
of caring
All of that betrayal
Takes you to her path
Fear
But your gut says no
No!
Love anyway!!
DO IT!!!
Well
That’s just NUTS!
So
Love is crazy
It is
It’s crazy trust to stand back up
Dust off
And dance naked in the light of joy
And, if not joy
Honesty.
Cannons pointed
Ready, Aim,…
But, you don’t duck
You don’t run
Because
Because fuck that
You saw where fear got her
You saw that right?
She landed in a land of fury
Unable to speak she spat
Fire
She became a destroyer
In the name of being destroyed
So
Love
Love anyway
That’s what I do
So can you.
And, yes
Love is crazy.